Pistorius as mysterious as the shooting tragedy

His head shrouded by a sports hoodie, the young man walked

unnoticed through a bustling crowd outside the gates of the Olympic

village in London last year. When he got close, I saw a familiar

face smiling at me.

It was Oscar Pistorius. ”Gerald!” he called and then raised

both hands for a double high-five greeting followed by a hug.

On Feb. 14, I saw Pistorius in a hood again, and this time he

stared straight at the ground, hands thrust into the pockets of a

gray sports jacket. He was flanked by officers as he left a police

station. Hours earlier, he’d been charged with killing his


It is hard to reconcile the easygoing, charismatic man I

interviewed on several occasions with the man accused of

premeditated murder in the shooting of Reeva Steenkamp in his South

African home. Prosecutors painted him as a man prone to anger and

violence, though he had no prior criminal record. The Olympian says

he shot Steenkamp by mistake, thinking she was a nighttime

intruder, while prosecutors allege he intentionally shot her after

the couple argued.

Who is Oscar Pistorius? I thought I had some idea, and in a

sense, so did the millions around the world who cheered the

double-amputee athlete as a symbol of determination over


Now he is as much of a mystery as whatever happened in his home

in the early hours of Valentine’s Day.

My meeting with Pistorius in London was one of several in the

three years I have been covering his remarkable story for The

Associated Press, from South Africa to Italy to London – and last

week to Courtroom C on the first floor of the red-bricked and

gray-walled Pretoria Magistrate’s Court in the South African


On reflection, Pistorius’ narrative is partly an exploration of

how hard it is to truly know someone who lives so much in the

public eye. Journalists witnessed or heard reports of occasional

flashes of anger – with hindsight, do they loom as potentially more

meaningful? At the time the outbursts passed largely unnoticed.

What I do know is that the public Pistorius seemed to have a

soft spot.

Weeks before his debut at the Olympics, he stopped an interview

with me to talk to a little girl who walked up to give him a

strawberry from the gardens of the rural hotel at his training base

in Gemona, in northern Italy.

”Oscar, Oscar,” the little girl said, holding out the berry.

Behind her, a woman called the child away to stop her from

bothering Pistorius.

”Ciao, baba. Grazie,” Pistorius replied with a smile, unfazed

by the interruption, showing off his Italian and pretending to eat

the strawberry.

”She brings me something to eat every night,” he told me

delightedly, pointing up to the windows of his hotel room.

Now the world knows Pistorius owns a 9 mm Parabellum pistol,

licensed for self-defense, and that he applied for licenses to own

six more guns – listed for his private collection – weeks before

the shooting death of Steenkamp.

His relationships with women have been spread over the gossip

pages in South Africa.

We spoke about his running, his love of sneakers and nice

clothes but also about his history with fast cars and motorbikes

and the high-speed boat crash in 2009 that left him in a serious

condition in the hospital with head wounds. He conceded that the

crash caused him to rethink how he lived.

”I just realized that I need to make some changes and some of

them need to be with my lifestyle,” Pistorius told me last year in

that interview in northern Italy. ”I was messing around a lot with

motorbikes and just playing around and taking unnecessary


Again with hindsight, was he grappling with anything deeper than

just the high spirits and penchant for thrills of many young men

flushed with success and money to burn?

Covering Pistorius’ track career, he became more comfortable

with me, remembering my name and shouting it when he would see me

among a pack of journalists.

During his Olympic preparations in Italy, Pistorius pulled out

his cellphone to show me pictures of his bleeding leg stumps,

rubbed raw from the friction of pounding around the track on his


It was around the time when people were again questioning

whether he should be allowed to run in the 400 meters against

able-bodied athletes. The message in showing these graphic photos

was: Do you still think I have an unfair advantage?

Until that moment, I hadn’t fully realized what Pistorius went

through every time he slipped on his prosthetic blades to compete

or train. Not many people had, I guess.

It was rare for Pistorius to show images of his amputated limbs,

but he grinned and shrugged. He said it was just part of the


It took a long time for him to get used to people filming and

taking photographs of him putting on his carbon-fiber blades. He

used to ask people not to film him without his prosthetics.

When he finished a race at the South African national

championships last year, he quickly disappeared to a secluded part

of the track to swap his blades for artificial legs, complete with

sponsored sneakers that his agent was holding for him. It was his

regular post-race routine. He then came bounding back to give me an


He often apologized when he had to end an interview because he

was running out of time. It always seemed people wanted more of his

time than he could give. After we talked in London, Pistorius

stayed a little longer to pose for photographs with Olympic

security staff, even convincing one shy lady to get into one of the


Then he popped on his identity-concealing hood and, on his

prosthetic legs, he walked off, anonymous in the crowd.

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