Being Tyson Blog: Season Finale
OCT 22, 2013 8:32p ET
Every week, Mike Tyson's wife, Kiki, will offer her perspective on each episode in her own words.
As I have said before, filming this documentary wasn't easy for Mike. He had conflicting feelings about allowing cameras such direct access to his life. He still doesn't know if doing this was the right thing to do. But my hope is that he will look back on this journey with nostalgia as the years pass. This was an unbelievable opportunity to have some pivotal moments in his life captured. This is something that our children and our children's children can look at and understand more about who Mike was when he's no longer here to tell them.
It wasn't easy for me to open up either. I am a very private person (I still don't even use Twitter or Facebook). The weirdest part of it all was seeing myself on television talking about my relationship with Mike and about the hardships we had to endure to get to the strong point we are at now. I became unexpectedly emotional during the interviewing process and felt vulnerable in a way I hadn't expected. It's not that I regret anything that I said. However, it's easy to say something when you don't have to see or hear it played back to you. During the interviewing process, I was really comfortable with the film crew and almost forgot that what I was saying would be aired for all to see. But in spite of my own personal reservations and insecurities about being so open, I'm proud that I remained true to who I am.
Watching the conversation unfold about the loss of Mike's four-year-old daughter, Exodus, between Mike and our four-year-old daughter, Milan, in Episode 3 was quite overwhelming. Our daughter was only 5 months old when Mike's daughter, Exodus, passed away. Milan is now the same age Exodus was when she passed and I know this is bittersweet for Mike. He looks at Milan and wonders what Exodus would have been like if she were still here. She would be eight years old now. Although, Milan never had the opportunity to meet her sister, spiritually she is connected to her. Mike (and I) keep her presence alive in our home and always say her name when we talk to Milan and Morocco about their siblings. As Milan gets older she asks more questions about Exodus and seeing that exchange with the way Mike talked to Milan about Exodus had me quite emotional.
Although Episode 3 is the most you will see of me in the entire documentary, I must admit I'm uncomfortable watching the remaining episodes. It's a strange feeling seeing yourself outside of yourself. Now I understand why Mike isn't too keen on watching himself in interviews. I never really understood it until the other night.
This entire documented journey has forced Mike into creating and reliving moments that he never would have done without the push. Countless times, Mike has told me he wanted to show me around his old neighborhood in Brooklyn or take me to Catskill, but life would get in the way and we would never make it a priority. But thanks to this documentary, we were able to make it a reality.
Even with all of our reservations about doing this, I believe it was still a good thing to do. This documentary captured some amazing moments: Mike talking to Evander Holyfield about the Bite Fight, Mike playing checkers with Muhammad Ali, Mike on tour with his one-man show, Mike visiting Jack Johnson's grave and my all-time favorite... Mike hanging out with his children.
A lot of you will probably get the sense from watching Mike's life play out that he still doesn't appear to be truly happy. Like I said from the beginning, this is what makes Mike who he is. Whether it's Iron Mike or Just Mike, he leaves you guessing and yearning to know more. The Mystique of Mike! He's the man that is sad one moment then deliriously happy the next... The man that has aspirations to achieve greater things but not sure if he has the will to complete them... The man that needs to be in conflict with himself (or someone else) to be at peace with his thoughts. This is what makes him interesting and vulnerable and loving and amazing. He's a complex soul with a heart of gold.
Now that the documentary has come to a close, life still goes on for us. We are still touring the show, heading overseas very soon. Mike has recently started his own boxing promotion company, Iron Mike Productions (go to ironmikeproductions.com for updates on the latest fight cards). In addition, Mike has a memoir coming out in November. This book is a must-read. It's a fascinating, detailed look into his life told in his own words. He has his charity; Mike Tyson Cares that he plans to resurge to help give underprivileged children resources and opportunities to reach their best potential. There are just so many great things on the horizon for Mike. He doesn't take anything for granted and is very grateful for the opportunities that have come his way after retirement. Thank you for reading this blog. It's been a lot of fun writing on behalf of this project. All the best to everyone!